As this new year approached and I was inundated with suggestions to leave my troubles in 2017, look ahead to 2018, come up with a resolution for the new year, and be excited about it, all I could feel was the need to be left alone.
The last six months of 2017 were horrendous for my family. My 86-year-old father underwent heart surgery on August 1st and due to medical malpractice, suffered a brain injury. I want to sue those medical professionals who made my father’s life a real hell. Probably, with the guidance of a legal professional from a medical malpractice law firm, I can get their license canceled so that they can’t play with any other person’s life.
Before this surgery, my father was a healthy, strong, intelligent man who went to the gym three times a week, completed the New York Times Sunday Crossword Puzzle, and rode a tractor almost daily through acres of farm land. His heart is as healthy as it can be, but his brain is not. Although he has progressed a great deal from being unable to walk, talk, eat, and control his bodily functions, our family has been through pure hell taking care of him. Be it financially, mentally, or emotionally. Sometimes, resources such as life insurance and Totally and Permanently Disabled (TPD) Insurance (learn more here) could be helpful to the family members of the patients going through life threatening issues like a brain injury. However, the emotional toll can be hard to overcome easily, especially for the family taking care of the patient.
I also can’t overlook the fact that such conditions often tend to make a person partially or sometimes completely disabled. However, you would be relieved to know if you are from Australia that there are schemes to help disabled people. And you can contact a ndis support coordination agency to avail of the benefits for yourself or any of your acquaintances who have a disability.
I can relate to such a situation as my father and mother now live with my family. I also know many other people who have gone through something like this and how financially draining it can be. Luckily, there is help out there with law firms on sites like Lawtx.com who can help you to claim compensation and get your lives back on track. We’re getting there slowly, but the road is long.
So, when faced with the anticipation of a new year, I simply felt stuck in the hardship of 2017. How can I not be? It’s still happening. So I wanted to put this off. Could we just wait another six months for a new year? I’m just not ready.
So I turned to thoughts of yoga: love, light, peace, and truth in body, mind, and spirit. And that was my turning point.
New Years Day passed without a thought. I celebrated without the need to have discovered my resolution. Daily tasks were carried out in plenty of time. The house was transitioned back to normalcy from all the decorations, baked goods, and Christmas music.
What I had to remember is that this year has been difficult for me. And 2018 will continue to be the same, at least for the time being. In addition to the events surrounding my father’s injury, I have lived with anxiety and depression since the age of 19. I turned 50 last year. In fact, my 50th birthday celebration was brought to a screeching halt by what happened to my father. It’s been a struggle to keep my anxiety and depression at bay.
So I gave myself a break. A big one. I removed this huge need to identify what I desired for 2018 and gave myself the time and space to let it come to me. I created an opening to allow its entrance.
On January 1st, while scrolling through my Instagram feed, it flew right in. I saw a word I hadn’t seen in a while and had forgotten about: Sankalpa. This is a Sanskrit word in yogic philosophy that refers to a heartfelt desire. It is an intention or a resolve to do something. It comes from deep within and is often an affirmation.
On January 2nd, I taught a yoga class using this idea as my theme, informing my students that they had one of four options:
1.) Use a resolution you’ve already created and transform it into a Sankalpa.
2.) Create your Sankalpa during class today.
3.) Be open to receive your Sankalpa if it is not easily coming to you.
4.) None of the above.
I had already chosen number three and I still haven’t been able to put it into a concise phrase, but I now know what I want this year. I want yoga. Not just the physical practice of yoga but all of the spiritual healing and connection that comes with it. I want to feel as much love and peace as possible every day, in every moment. I want to be able to surround the sadness I feel for my father with light and transform it into joy. I want to be true to myself and allow the time and space needed for all of this.
I can do it. I know I can. And I’m in no hurry.
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